This week I found myself overtaken by the to-dos of ministry.  Remembering the passage “be anxious for nothing…” I realized the enemy was consuming me with anxiety and fear of failure. Do we not often go back to this place even after we have spent years with the Lord teaching us He truly does have all things under control?

Although I had a full day of last minute deadlines for the new Drama Queen Magazine, tour dates to prepare for, various ministry responsibilites I decided to shut down…….and go to my secret place with the Lord and just beg for His presence to descend. The enemy had been relentless all week and I was in the middle of a fast so I knew to expect such intensity during a time of committment with the Lord.

I found myself weeping as I felt Him surround me. It was as if my head was leaning up against His chest as He gently whispered….”there, there.” Even writing this I am overwhelmed with tears for that is exactly what I needed at that moment and it was all He wanted from me. My time…my trust…my love…my weakness…my fears…my hopes…my heart. I began singing to Him a song He has given me months ago. A song of longing after Him that poured out of me as I simply wanted MORE of Him!

I have said time and time again….the music and the “stuff of ministry” can go….at any time should He see a need for that or that it is drawing me away from Himself. But I cannot live without Him in my life……I need Him more than I even need my next breath.

I am including this song…rough and uncut….simply because I pray it draws you to Him and that your heart would have the same longing and yearning for Him as mine does…The lyrics are also available for you to click on to follow along….let the Lord pour into you the same desire He poured into me during my moment with Jesus.

I LONG FOR MORE….

Love Much!

Shelly